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i am going to close this blog if u wanna know the reasons..........ask the liar...........

sigh...

yesterday went to nus for briefing with huixuan... sharon sleeping so she didnt go... damn lame lor i travel 1hr plus the briefing only 5 minutes nia...

aft tat met ted at buona vista... its reali nice to see him after such a long time... he was wearing white long sleeve... looked reali good... or maybe because i miss him too much... so we just talked and we went changi airport take train and back... reali felt good to be with him... haha maybe its good to not see each other for a long time... if not take each other for granted...

then now just put down the phone talking with him... dad today hospitalised... so i gotta go hospital later... i just wanted to tell him... n i called him for about 1/2 hr b4 he pick up... he an1 wei4 also never an1 wei4... he at jun qing's place playing computer... with his sister also... damn fun right... just pang sei me.... i hate it that i always call him and he always playing computer or going to fall asleep... GOT ONE TIME HE TALK TO ME WITHOUT DOING ANYTHING ELSE AT ALL NOT?!

then i say i dun wan talk to him liao he pissed off lor... say i a bit only angry... hey... u want try i do this to you for 2 yrs and 16 days ok? i everyday also call you lor... then u see u can even tahan 16 days?

luckily nx week i going camp 5 days 4 nights... i'll have friends to pei me stay up... and i dun have to get upset almost every day...

i'm ok

i'm ok... great in fact... i sms him bout 7-8 sms today... call him 5-6 times? no reply never pick up... and he still go play with his nephew dun come ep... and i just sms him ask whether he received the msgs this morning? he never reply... i call... and he just say sorry la...

anyway i had a great time at eastpoint... tat brown shirt guy appeared and smiled at me... one of the 3 guys who took photo of me followed me home... its good to have other guys who appreciate me! right?!

anyway i'm very sure he wun read this oso... coz he totally forgot about this...

2 years...

teddy... today is such a special day... exactly 2 years ago this very day... i agreed to be with u... haha aft 2 yrs of tears, smiles, hugs, kisses, ups and downs... im so glad that i still have u by me... really love u so much... n thanks so much for every little thing u've done... it means so much... haha but u also got irritating points la... must work hard on it wor! eg... study harder... play less com... less piggy =p hahahaha...

these 2 wks quite sad becoz i didnt get into medicine... but teddy has been with me along the way... and it definitely makes things so much better... haha and we've a very good plan which is to go to australia n study uni together... maybe we'll just settle down there oso... haha... =) teddy i want go melbourne hor!! muacks muacks... study hard n we must start saving k!

haha n yesterday watched ms universe twice... i just like to look at pretty things... some of the women are reali so beautiful i really go "wow"... they're puerto rico, latvia, venezuela, dominican republic, mexico, switzerland... so sweet... so beautiful... haha... but i not les la... haha my mum oso watched together with me twice... wahaha...

4 words...

4 words... i love u teddy!

yawn

just came home from shopping with mum! haha bought 3 tops, 1 skirt n 1 pants... everytime me n mum go out shopping only we confirm sure buy clothes one...

woke up reali late tis morning... 11 plus... haha e weather so good... was raining n cool... sms teddy n he oso piggy still in bed... e piggy couple =p

yesterday went to library then very sad... actuali supposed to meet teddy there... he was already at pasir ris... then mum say she going with me n bro... then we both like argh... but she say she wan go shop... haiz then i noe teddy not happy... i feel so so so damn bad always make him travel to places for nothing... =( so sorry teddy... love u though... mean everything i say in e card =)

but at e library i borrowed some dance and diy books... haha... n i came home dl lots of cross stitch pictures... coz i wanna do cross stitch! i just hope i finish it in time.... haha e pictures all so sweet... n i showed teddy pictures of teddies couples... so cute! =)

n at nite i waited 1 hr till 12.45am for teddy to call me sia... then he talk to me awhile only go slp liao... say tonite sure drink lots coffee talk to me till 4am... haha lets see if he can keep his word... i bet he cant =p

argh!

13/5/05:
sigh failed my driving test... hate e stupid tester... he insisted i beat the orange light... damn wat lor... then he not happy i quarrel wif him... argh! i quarrel twice about another thing oso... shit him... dun let me see him again... hahaha den i cried at the driving centre... damn funny... i dunno if got pple cry when fail driving test... then i dun reali care coz i always cry ma... but my mum like so paiseh say i big girl liao oso cry... say not everything can be perfect blah blah... haha...

in e evening went eastpoint dance... then when i came down from popular... i saw this guy in brown shirt taking photos... at first i tot he was just taking photos of linedancers... but i always dun like being taken photo of ... so i always siam...

aft tat i realise hor... he keep smiling at me... and like always try come near... n try take photo of me... coz when i sitting down... he'll be squatting down to take photo... haha but everytime b4 he's going to press... i'll suddenly stand up... then if i stand up he wan take... i faster turn around...

wah... n i kept avoiding him n he kept following... is like i from one end move to e other end he oso follow sia!! n kept smiling... =/ aft tat pearlyn came at 9 or 9+lidat... then told her bout him... n she kinda "protect" me from him... n we tried walking somewhere else... n its like so so so obvious... like 2 seconds later he'll be there... freak me out sia... how can pple walk so fast de... summore i was wearing black... i tot it was quite hard to see... then he stayed till 10.30,10.40 i tink... and he waved goodbye... hello?! and then he sat at the mrt station there...

wah piang... reali too free... aft tat told teddy bout it... but i tink e guy left liao... i didnt tell teddy earlier becoz i noe teddy sure get pple to beat him up one......


14/5/05:
went to piano sch to teach.. then min sheng last minute forgot bout her lesson... so had to change to 4pm... at first i was thinking whether to take not... but i tot teddy wun meet me.... so i just ake... coz if not i've to replace another day oso the same thing... but jus when i went outside to tell say i can take... teddy sms me say can meet me!!!

wa!!!!!! i almost wan cry sia!!!! but nvm... nx sat confirm can meet teddy =)
so aft i finish wif you jin... i rush down to studio... latin jazz is fun... how i wish teddy can pei me learn... haha but he die oso wun one.... and anyway e instructor is quite gay oso.... dance nice la... but quite gay... n aft lesson had to find that damn 10 busstop... then pass by so many lao ah pek... argh!!! tat's y i always always hate being alone... i always need company everywhere i go... coz i cant stand guys or men who look at me...

aft felicia's lesson... parents picked me up from katong mall... then we went home... n aft tat went eastpoint dance again... wa damn damn pathetic so so so few pple!!! then me&mum hide at e back... haha we always like to hide... coz feel damn paiseh sia... so bright and so few pple... tink more ppl watching than ppl dancing...

aft tat i was standing inside eastpoint near giordano blowing aircon... then i saw tat same guy yesterday! but he kept looking at e dancefloor... he walk past me without even seeing me... wa heng sia!!! so i just hide inside... then aft tat i saw him looking around dancefloor den shaking his head... heng... aft tat he went very very close to my chair n stuff... i tot he recognise my bag... heng is not sia... aft tat he left... heng....

but i tink bout late... 7plus 8 liddat... got another grp of 3 guys keep staring at me... one chi, one indian and one dunno wat... wah piang!!! then lynette helped me to keep a lookout... n she say the chi use hp take photo of me... but i never even face them... so i dunno they take wat oso... then i try to hide... go play chess with tat small boy... then!!! i look up... they were standing opposite facing me... but a distance away la... wth rite!! wa siao... then they only bout 10 plus then leave... sian ah sian....

and to make things even more interesting... at bout 9plus tat yesterday that guy came back again! but now with another female n guy fren....

i got so nice to see meh!!! can see for hrs... i ask wx wait for me at dance 5 min only he oso will grumble sia... i was stinky, sweaty, hair in a mess, no makeup.... see wat see? take wat take?
as i always say... those who always try aa never gets attention... those who always try to hide away does... so teddy dun try to aa at dance k? believe in ur own ability pple will look at u liao...

but i dun wan attention!!!! argh freaking guys go away..... i only wan teddy's attention =)
haha n teddy say if they dare do anything to me they sure die... haha teddy ah so protective... but i like =p