4 words...

4 words... i love u teddy!

yawn

just came home from shopping with mum! haha bought 3 tops, 1 skirt n 1 pants... everytime me n mum go out shopping only we confirm sure buy clothes one...

woke up reali late tis morning... 11 plus... haha e weather so good... was raining n cool... sms teddy n he oso piggy still in bed... e piggy couple =p

yesterday went to library then very sad... actuali supposed to meet teddy there... he was already at pasir ris... then mum say she going with me n bro... then we both like argh... but she say she wan go shop... haiz then i noe teddy not happy... i feel so so so damn bad always make him travel to places for nothing... =( so sorry teddy... love u though... mean everything i say in e card =)

but at e library i borrowed some dance and diy books... haha... n i came home dl lots of cross stitch pictures... coz i wanna do cross stitch! i just hope i finish it in time.... haha e pictures all so sweet... n i showed teddy pictures of teddies couples... so cute! =)

n at nite i waited 1 hr till 12.45am for teddy to call me sia... then he talk to me awhile only go slp liao... say tonite sure drink lots coffee talk to me till 4am... haha lets see if he can keep his word... i bet he cant =p

argh!

13/5/05:
sigh failed my driving test... hate e stupid tester... he insisted i beat the orange light... damn wat lor... then he not happy i quarrel wif him... argh! i quarrel twice about another thing oso... shit him... dun let me see him again... hahaha den i cried at the driving centre... damn funny... i dunno if got pple cry when fail driving test... then i dun reali care coz i always cry ma... but my mum like so paiseh say i big girl liao oso cry... say not everything can be perfect blah blah... haha...

in e evening went eastpoint dance... then when i came down from popular... i saw this guy in brown shirt taking photos... at first i tot he was just taking photos of linedancers... but i always dun like being taken photo of ... so i always siam...

aft tat i realise hor... he keep smiling at me... and like always try come near... n try take photo of me... coz when i sitting down... he'll be squatting down to take photo... haha but everytime b4 he's going to press... i'll suddenly stand up... then if i stand up he wan take... i faster turn around...

wah... n i kept avoiding him n he kept following... is like i from one end move to e other end he oso follow sia!! n kept smiling... =/ aft tat pearlyn came at 9 or 9+lidat... then told her bout him... n she kinda "protect" me from him... n we tried walking somewhere else... n its like so so so obvious... like 2 seconds later he'll be there... freak me out sia... how can pple walk so fast de... summore i was wearing black... i tot it was quite hard to see... then he stayed till 10.30,10.40 i tink... and he waved goodbye... hello?! and then he sat at the mrt station there...

wah piang... reali too free... aft tat told teddy bout it... but i tink e guy left liao... i didnt tell teddy earlier becoz i noe teddy sure get pple to beat him up one......


14/5/05:
went to piano sch to teach.. then min sheng last minute forgot bout her lesson... so had to change to 4pm... at first i was thinking whether to take not... but i tot teddy wun meet me.... so i just ake... coz if not i've to replace another day oso the same thing... but jus when i went outside to tell say i can take... teddy sms me say can meet me!!!

wa!!!!!! i almost wan cry sia!!!! but nvm... nx sat confirm can meet teddy =)
so aft i finish wif you jin... i rush down to studio... latin jazz is fun... how i wish teddy can pei me learn... haha but he die oso wun one.... and anyway e instructor is quite gay oso.... dance nice la... but quite gay... n aft lesson had to find that damn 10 busstop... then pass by so many lao ah pek... argh!!! tat's y i always always hate being alone... i always need company everywhere i go... coz i cant stand guys or men who look at me...

aft felicia's lesson... parents picked me up from katong mall... then we went home... n aft tat went eastpoint dance again... wa damn damn pathetic so so so few pple!!! then me&mum hide at e back... haha we always like to hide... coz feel damn paiseh sia... so bright and so few pple... tink more ppl watching than ppl dancing...

aft tat i was standing inside eastpoint near giordano blowing aircon... then i saw tat same guy yesterday! but he kept looking at e dancefloor... he walk past me without even seeing me... wa heng sia!!! so i just hide inside... then aft tat i saw him looking around dancefloor den shaking his head... heng... aft tat he went very very close to my chair n stuff... i tot he recognise my bag... heng is not sia... aft tat he left... heng....

but i tink bout late... 7plus 8 liddat... got another grp of 3 guys keep staring at me... one chi, one indian and one dunno wat... wah piang!!! then lynette helped me to keep a lookout... n she say the chi use hp take photo of me... but i never even face them... so i dunno they take wat oso... then i try to hide... go play chess with tat small boy... then!!! i look up... they were standing opposite facing me... but a distance away la... wth rite!! wa siao... then they only bout 10 plus then leave... sian ah sian....

and to make things even more interesting... at bout 9plus tat yesterday that guy came back again! but now with another female n guy fren....

i got so nice to see meh!!! can see for hrs... i ask wx wait for me at dance 5 min only he oso will grumble sia... i was stinky, sweaty, hair in a mess, no makeup.... see wat see? take wat take?
as i always say... those who always try aa never gets attention... those who always try to hide away does... so teddy dun try to aa at dance k? believe in ur own ability pple will look at u liao...

but i dun wan attention!!!! argh freaking guys go away..... i only wan teddy's attention =)
haha n teddy say if they dare do anything to me they sure die... haha teddy ah so protective... but i like =p

teddy's home

today i went for driving... tmr's driving test! heng today everything was ok... so strike or hit kerb... if tmr is lidat... then i'd definitely pass my driving test! haha den i'll have my driving license... while teddy only have the driving license for driving in e arcade... wahaha bleah =p but if tmr somebody just run in front of me... it oso means tat i'll fail la... then i'll haunt tat person for e rest of my life!

aft tat teddy went to driving sch pick me up to go his house... haha he dumb dumb make me walk in e wrong direction n then back... n when we going to e busstop... suddenly daws run up behind us... haha i didnt noe daws oso accompanied den to come pick me... anyway dear... *u look very good in white! =p*

so we took 87 to ted's house exactly... n on e bus daws almost got trouble wif this malay guy... gdness... ted and his bro reali so gangsters sia... open mouth close mouth oso talk so loud n all bad words... i dun like =( teddy must try to be more civilised k?

aft tat we watched shark's tale in ted's room... me, ted and daws... at first daws sitting nx to ted... aft tat come sit nx to me... haha then we all hiding underneath e blanket... but actualli not cold one la... those 2 brothers so scared of cold... hahaha... but anyway it felt so good lying on teddy... snugging up with him feel so cosy and warm and safe =)

but after e movie... i very not safe ah!! haha... i shan't say y... teddy noe best... haha i tink teddy sure scolded by his mum... n aft tat i played chess with ted... lose la... aft tat played with daws... haha... ted had to help both of us... in e end i win!! =p haha...

aft tat bout 6 i went home... dear can only pei me till bus come... aft tat i rush home myself... love teddy... dun forget wat u promise me wor! =)

a million yrs from now u noe i'll be loving u still..

glad tat aft wat have happened... me&teddy r ok again =) things always happen becoz we love each other too much... but its oso precisely tat we love each other so much tat we can never bear to let go... muacks... hope to see u tmr dear... i dreamt of u last nite! haha... =wifey=

wrong?

its wrong to love someone too much. its wrong to get jealous. its wrong to hold on to someone too tightly. its wrong to be unhappy tat u're not next to him. its wrong to see them dance together. [just close your eyes] its wrong to get angry when u see his arms around her waist. its wrong to say i'm hurt. its wrong to cry till 2am. its so wrong. i'm always wrong. he's always smouldered by my love. he wants to be free.

its right to shut up. its right to say im not hurt. its right to be scolded for 4 hrs for something tat's not my fault. its right to be ignored. its right to say sorry n be ignored. its right tat everything is my fault. its right to let him free. its right to take e astar scholarship n fly off to usa for 8 years.

dead....

W.O.W
Humanoids- 67 dead...
Beast - 203 dead...

ME - DEAD

haiz... y izzit always like this.. IT'S ME ME ME ME ME!!!! it's always mi... haiz... *envy* ppl out there...

wad is freedom...
wad is love...
where is my kingdom...
the kingdom of dove...

dove in the sky...
way up high...
no one to stop it...
for no one try...

may i be that dove...
so full of freedom...
may i be that dove...
living in that kingdom...

-ME-

wei!

haha u saying who can't be like xi ye? u saying me ah? anyway who is she ah? i ur wifey not good enough meh... haha =p anyway teddy... thanks for e cookies n red gummies!! waited for me at studio... n reali giving me a surprise by staying back to wait for me aft piano... reali wished u would stay but didnt expect! summore appear wif a packet of cookies... so swt!!

but too bad i couldnt go toa payoh dance... sorry lei i tis few days busy to update blog... but i'll aft tis wk k? just wanna say happy 23rd anniversary! happy 700th day anniversary... n if you're lost... i'll be ur guide... i'll hold ur hands... showing u the road of love... i will walk with you there! haha...

or if u prefer to drive... driving down the road of love... u and me... k-i-s-s-i-n-g... loving you loving me... forever... just u and me! haha... tis one copy u de =p

just let u noe i'll never abandon u n we'll definitely make it thru at e end... muacks!! love u hubby!!